Obsessive Compulsiveness

You say, I care

but she say, you obsessed

quite frugal as it seems but sure to drill a hole

oblivious of the situation you were bound to be

never wanted to be prepared for the worst

when it slips, you just let it go

 

Dive in she said with a smile

With freedom beneath both our hands

one starts to shiver

Parkinson’s cant be cured by holding tight

stopping the movements

have to let go for a realistic cure

 

Although walls broken into pieces

she withdrew from stepping over

seeing the next ahead after

Once I feared the same

that she fears now

but too late for me to handle

 

She felt trapped I think

and million such thoughts

invade over my mind

I knew they were myths for sure

Went on proving things

that pointed the finger at me

 

Its was her problem from the start

soon after another put light on it,

is as psychological as it seems like

but nothing done to revamp

decided for both without asking

and left with no fears

 

Caring compulsively till comfortable

and attachment mistaken for obsession

trying  all ways to bring out maturity

and modify her thinking and decision

everything proved to be futile

to make her understand its not better for both

 

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The not so Powerful Power of a Sentence

Remember when you said a thing that is completely shitty that came out of a confusion. After complete understanding of the matter…you disagree with your words and assume yourself as a jerk.

The same happened to me twice.

I was participating in an informal debate with my friends (informal in the sense disagreeing what your opponent said and referring to him as an asshole after his every argument) whether biology or mathematics is important both for survival and in daily life. I was completely confused and uttered the most ugly, foolish and stupidest thing ever said by mankind that OUR FINGERS WOULD NOT BE FINGERS IF WE DIDNT HAVE BIOLOGY……I know this is shit because it is. I should have thought twice or thrice before saying these words.This sentence ….yea this changed my last two years in school.

Every time I said something ….even be it serious matters …..my friends would drop a bomb that has these words written on it. If I met someone new, they would spoil it by exposing my views and that girl(preferably) would just walk away thinking me as a jerk. There’s no room for me now in debates as they find my views shitty. Ironically, they want to hear more from me so that the could make fun of me. In a tedx event in our school, a jerk exposed my jerkness to a comedian who found it extremely funny and would use it in his show…how great is that.

There is this guy, Slim Shetty …finds my views shitty(everyone does) and he hopes that he would hear more from me so that he could analyse my words, fall deep and relate to real life situations (obviously to make fun of me). So ….fuck you.

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This thing has destroyed my image but has never been able to pierce long enough to imbalance my emotions. I DONT CARE WHAT THEY THINK OF ME. If I were any other normal teenager I am damn sure he would brood upon it and would be near to a nervous breakdown ….humiliation would pierece him like a needle into a cake and destroy his school years ahead. Yea…I am trying to say that I am not like any normal teen and have learnt a bit early to control my emotions and give importance to the things that matter.

The thing I am trying to say is that a sentence even though how powerful it may be, cant pierce you if you didn’t allow it to. Simple as it sounds like. This might help to control your emotions, just say it loud when you feel humiliated….zero fucks given.

My friends right there think I cry everyday(they specify… sitting in a the CORNER, weeping) even though they know the truth(they do this because they don’t have any other work to do and want to pass their time).

If anyone out there is facing a similar problem laugh as hard as you can with them when they humiliate you. Dont ever ,ever start explaining them how stupid you were.

Hence the not so powerful power of a sentence is like a battery, when on full charge affects hard, that gradually becomes weak and ultimately dead. This Duracell can be converted into a Shakti by you and you only if you know what I mean.